An E-event

5 minutes ago, I was trying to update a page and figuring the settings, in the end I decided to unpublished it until everything is settled. I still felt contented of bringing her for a stroll tonight although my hand was a little tired. 

All the while I'm still okay until i came across a fb's wall. Mark Zuckerberg creates this social network for university's student in United States in the beginning and now becomes so globally excess where everyone is posting their status and pictures. And now I'm trying to blame on fb for being so advance that causes me to see a proposal.......=.=||| After reading the friend's post,and in order to hide my emotional feeling, i ran to the couch and tears just wet up both my cheeks. I always encounter others' proposal. Proposal! What a sensitive words in my dictionary! 

A good buddy of mine, she actually got shocked when i told her this news.Her response is "this is out of my expectation girl, congratulations! How did he propose to you ?" Guess what I don't know how to answer the question or I don't have any further description on that. ........so pathetic.!!! I said well he asked once when he was lying on the bed next to me during a cold winter.I can vividly remember the question is "Do you want me to marry u instead of saying marry me?" Furthermore, there is nothing else in the environment. M I being too particular? Sometimes I even think that his parents are the one that urging him for a marriage. He is just fine with this.Does not informing anyone except some of my bestie because I'm afraid I fail.Being such a perfectionist, and I'm not hoping everyone will think I'm a divorced woman if I do.  Perhaps I should feel satisfied and blessed that at least your man is willing to make a commitment. A better way to appease myself. What m I actually demanding.?........I shall know on the first day we know each other. 

Yesterday, another small argument. I said stop asking me to go back Malaysia.I really really hatred when we have argument and the only solution that pop out from your mouth is to go back to become ur Miss Gan.I hope one day you'll understand how much I have given up for this and you'll treasure everything. I'm all by myself, alone here, please do remember this.

However, I'm still grateful today that you told me u're wanting for a  change in environment for your next job. I know the reason. You think it is better for three of us, and is time to drop down thing. I hope you do keep your words. Honestly, I appreciate. I'm hoping the day is reaching very soon.